It is You

It is You
Who has given me the entrance
To the world I thought I never knew
In resistance

It is You
Who has given my heart a chance
To beat in an enchanting tune
In resistance

Still You
Who has shown me the temptatious dance
to follow the love tune played by you
In resistance

Resistance
Hesitation
Recalcitrance
Then I gave up
For the temptation
In you

I Am a Woman

I am a woman, and hatred is my middle name
The hate stubbed in me
By the person who should have loved me
The man so called Daddy

I am a woman, and hatred is my middle name
Who is never allowed to run free
Always compared, always asked to do his way
And even got my first love kicked out of our door

I am a woman, and hatred is my middle name
And life does not treat me well
Only leading me from one disappointment to another
Waiting for a hero to come and get me out of hell

I am a woman and hatred is my middle name
I found the hero, after 18 years of pain
But alas, he has chosen another woman
Instead of me, the first love of his

I am a woman and hatred is my middle name
I try so hard to hurt her for taking my hero
She who took my man's heart
The heart that should’ve been mine

Yet, the thing I don't realize, I hurt him more than her
Cause she is the light of his life and I have taken it from him
Making him a dead man walking with a big hole in his heart
A hole that I cannot fill since it belongs to her

I am a woman and hatred is my middle name
Now I am dying from my own cause
The stupidity of thinking and assuming
That I am hurting her when in fact I am killing myself.

Father

I miss my father
And his broad smile
That used to great me
When I walked through our door

I miss my father
And his open arms
That used to hug me
When I felt insecure

I miss my father
And his big hand
That once ran through my hair
When I lost my first love

I miss my father
And his loving eyes
That used to look at me
With unconditional love

I know that he is here
Watching me, crying with me
When my life gets tough
When the pain in my heart is unbearable

Still I miss my father
And his warm and tender heart
To ease the pain, to show me the way
To hug and hold me when I feel that the world is turning against me

Questions

Millions of questions
Hanging without answers
Of why and what and how
You broke my heart and leave me dying

I am done with crying, done with all denying
Still the questions stay
As why life treat me so viciously
And let you left me so heedlessly

Question, question and question
Driving me close to the edge of sanity
With no answers, only deception
Place the sorrow in me, for eternity

This Time, Broken Heart, Broken Dreams

Standing quietly here
with an empty feeling
when all I believe in
are falling apart into thousand pieces

The sun is shining so bright
The flowers look as beautiful
Yet my heart is darker than the darkest night
as it falls apart into thousand pieces

The love that I adore
is the same love that smashed me
cut me deep in my veins and my bones
breaking me into thousand pieces

My heart
My soul
My dream
Fly high and fall, crashed into thousand pieces

Since the Day You Walked Away

My heart feels like an empty space
I see millions of faces
Still it feels like I am out of place
Since the day you walked away

The hollowness seems larger
Every time the sun shines brighter
Because none of your laughter
Makes it warmer anymore

Mellowness
Sorrow and sadness
Leaving me senseless
In this indefinite madness
Since the day you walked away

How do I Love You

How do I love you, my gentle rays of sunshine?
I love you like a summer day passes by so fine
Like the brightness of light that is so divine
With the sweetness of the smell of the fresh leaves of pine
and a love so pure that only heaven can design

The way I love you, my lovely valentine
is bitter yet sweet like the taste of old wine
Strong yet tender like a silver line
Without lies and again without the thought of feigns
Adoring you like the goddess in the shrine

And yet, my dearest wonderful rhyme
My heart knows that our lives will never be intertwined
and your beauty has given me a sadness so define
For I know that you will never be mine
Just let me place this sorrow in me, like a parasitic love vine